Saturday, December 24, 2011

Things that piss me off..!

I'm not a person who blows her top often...who gets angry easily & all. BUT, dun push your limits. When I'm angry, you'll regret for sure. Plus, my anger doesn't last long! (Arrrgghh...no matter how hard I try to stay angry, I can't. Dun ask me why! Its just me.)


Some of the things that irritate me..or rather those that I find annoying:


1. If a person keeps arguing with me, when I know I'm right.
(I know when I am right. Or else I wouldn't be standing firm on my beliefs, you DUMBASS!)


2. When people do not admit their mistakes, despite knowing its their fault!
They always wanna win! - Seriously..get a life! I really admire those who accept defeat. In my eyes, they are the real winners, warriors, survivors etc...


3. Youths who do not take their lives seriously!- If you think you have a HELL lot of time out there, indulging in activities that deter you from being in a good position in life, please do a self-analysis & RECONSIDER your priorities! Life is not as easy as you think.


4. People who show-off!- Hello, I dun care how many PRADA bags you own, or how technologically-advanced you are with your iphones/ipads, if you have a low level of intellect, you are USELESS! Most importantly, if your character sucks, THROW them in the drain! Period.


5. Guys & girls who disrespect their moms.- Just go & die!


6. Girls who cut their wrists, all in the name of love!- I'd rather cut my wrist because I've not done well for my exams, than for a guy! Tats fcuking pathetic & stupid! WAKE UP WILL YA!!!

--->Well...tats what i did during school: Went to the restroom, locked myself up in one of the cubicles, cried & started cutting myself, because I got a B for a subject! Hehe..:P
(Dun blame me for that. A sudden B after consecutive years of maintaining a distinction was INDEED a big blow for me!)


7. Girls who keep quiet & do nothing as they get thrashed by their bfs nicely!- WTH is wrong with you?! A guy is beating you up & all you could do is stand there & keep mum?! Just kick his damn balls & walk off!

P.S: A guy is not a guy when he beats a girl. He is the girl! So for god sake, please thrash that b!tcH! You dun have to think twice. Just do it!


8. People who think that the world owes them a living.- FUCK OFF! Your existence is invalid!


9. You: Hey, wanna know something? Its about 'X'. He/She...
Me: Yea..what is it?
You: Erm..nahh nothing.

----> Once again, my middle finger rises up to salute you kind of fucktards!
If you dun wanna say it, WHY BRING UP THE SUBJECT IN THE FIRST PLACE?! -.-



10. People who keep me guessing...or rather beat about the bush.
- CAN YOU JUST FREAKING GET TO THE POINT!!!


11. Those smart alexes in your class.- YOU ONLY EXIST WHEN I'M IN DOUBT! OTHER THAN THAT, KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT IN CLASS, when the teacher is trying to educate! There's a reason for why you're STILL a bloody student & not the teacher!



12. Parents who scold you when you're actually studying BUT fail to notice when you've got something up your sleeves!- GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT, FOR ONCE!


13. Idiots who spread rumors about you!- Self-explanatory by the bold word.


14. People who keep complaining about the most trivial matters.- HOW UNIQUE can you be?


15. When Facebook suggests you friends to add & people on Twitter suggest you people to follow!- Why not you suggest a life time partner for me instead? PERFECT ONE, nothing less!


16. When you gave up your seat to an old person, and a FAT B!tcH comes hogging your seat!- WTF! I stood up for him NOT for you! You're that blind to even observe your surroundings?
Poor you! In that case, you DO deserve that seat more than him, I guess..


17. When that one person in the group who keeps talking like there's never an end!- IN CASE, you aren't aware, just telling ya...NOBODY GIVES A DAMN & the world doesn't revolve around you! So shudDup & keep your stories to yourself! Give others a chance to talk as well!


18. When a guy kisses you with his eyes opened- Tell me why I'm not intimidated?! You seriously need kissing classes, unless her assets are much more appealing than her kiss!


19. When even the most ugliest person in your class is attached, while you're there being attached to your books!- No comments. This always happens to me! HAHA...NAH JK! Just saying though...that feeling of inadequacy S-U-C-K-S!


And lasst but not leasttt......

20. When I'm watching the most crucial part of a show, DUN EVER WALK PASS THE DAMN TV!- You know what I mean...

Hehe...yub...for now, these are the 20 things that irk me! Can you relate to me?
Yes----> Good for you.
No-----> I dun care! :P

A side note: I apologize if I sound kinda vulgar in this post. OK. Not kinda but yes I was vulgar.
However, if you agree to what I've listed down, I'm sure my vulgarities are justifiable! :)





Friday, December 16, 2011

When boredom strikes...& passion comes in...







Bonjour! :)

AnnnnnnnnnnD here I am, once again, presenting you what I normally do when I'm sad, angry, bored, happy & wadeva emotions you can come up with... Started out doing art during secondary school years & ceased for about...hmm..3 years I suppose? After 3 years, I'm back here pursuing this thing. Kinda miss those days when I had art lessons, entering quite a number of competitions, unlike now whereby opportunities do not readily knock on the door. I can clearly say I'm not that perfect though in the drawings above. Will strive for perfection when I pursue my dream in the future yea.. I DO NOT know HOW, but we shall see what comes around then.. :)))

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Mi baby, Spartan.




I MISS MY BABY TRUCKLOADS! :(((
Miss carrying him in ma arms, kissing him!
Out of all 3 dogs, I miss him the MOST, not forgetting pearl, the black b!tch, (:P) which by now looks like a bulldozer!! Hehe..:P

Can't wait to visit them man!

Muacks...muacks..MUACKS!! <3

Thursday, December 8, 2011





-----> HAHA! True indeed...! Don't waste your tears on those who are not worthy.

Instead, be happy that you know where they stand in your life. :)

Friday, December 2, 2011

Dido - White Flag


------> I'll never grow tired of this song..!

My cries for help!


Dear God,

I'm writing this to you in the hope that you'll heed my prayers & fulfill one wish of mine. I dun wanna live this life anymore. Please take my life away. Just one wish and I'll promise I won't disturb you anymore alright...

I've been through a lot for the past two years. Shit! Purely shit. Two years might not seem that long. But, these two years have had drastic impact on the way I view life as it is now. From a gawky teenager to a matured woman. People who have come and gone out of my life taught me tremendous life lessons, which I managed to pull through together, with your help and guidance. You heard my cries every night, you saw my fears, you witnessed me suffering there, engulfed in the arms of demons, I was strangled in thick smoke where no one else except You, were present! Yet, with each and every consecutive failure I faced, I grew MUCH MUCH STRONGER, at the same time, I became NUMB! Every decision I made from the start, wasn't decided by me. Whereas, others determined my life path. People ruined my life. People killed me inside out. People disguised themselves, putting up a fake front. That was life then. This is STILL the same life now. Nothing has changed, except the fact that I have grown wiser enough to throw you the remark, ''Show me the genuine ones for ONCE, Lord!"


I'm frustrated, TIRED of everything! People dun treat me right. They take me for-granted. On the other hand, I am the kinda person who can TOLERATE all their shit. Is this fair? I can't always be the one who's taking the initiative every now and then just to ensure harmony, so that there won't be any misunderstandings. I'm getting sick. I swear! People just DON'T appreciate me and all am asking you is WHY IS THAT SO? Is it because I'm having very high expectations of people. Well...I don't think so Lord. Don't you think this is merely the basic requirement in any relationship?- be it parents-children, friends, lovers, siblings... Am i really asking too much? All I can say is...my expectations of people, especially guys, are getting higher and higher each time, simply because no one is meeting the basic requirements of mutual respect. I'll keep raising the benchmark. So don't blame me if I appear to be cold-hearted in future. You know very well your child is not the definition of emotionless. I have emotions. I feel things strongly, intensely. But I'm afraid I have to suppress these emotions and appear to be cold on the outside, so that I don't get disappointed in later stages.


In fact, I wouldn't be bothered if any other person does this to me. The worst part is that the person whom I trust the MOST( You know why), turned out to be a complete stranger. He's no longer the person I used to know. If that's the case Lord, why did u make him save my life in the first place? My death could have been played right in front of your eyes. Why did u build the trust, the bond between us so deeply that you had to shoot a sudden arrow of realization across me...just like that!? And I'm sure everything happens for a reason. Tell me why! I brushed against death, came back alive..just to experience death again? How many times do you want me to undergo this grueling process? Its draining my energy.


I dun wanna appear stupid. I was naive, once. Not now. Naive till a point where no one could have imagined. Innocence- the only word I was accustomed to then. Now, I'm clouded with so much of negativity till I'm even questioning you, God! Prove your existence to me. I know you exist. I felt you then. Now, you've drifted apart from me. FAR FAR away from me you're standing with a smile. Explain. I need to hear you speak. You love seeing your child suffer, don't you? Give me an answer to those tears that are streaming down my face. I feel pain. Are you gonna be ignorant to my pleas and keep introducing me to people, who are not worthy of me? And sadly to say, these are the kinda people I've been giving in to, although its not my fault. I do it because I do not wish to upset them, in addition to my endurance. But that doesn't mean there's room for complacency.


Please take away my life. My passion to thrive has died.


Sincerely,
Lost Child
:'(