WAKE UP!!!

As days pass by, I'm getting more worried. Literally, WORRIED....about my studies. Gosh.. I dun understand why I get so tired easily. Super duper auper buper cuper duper euper fuper guper huper iuper juper kuper luper muper nuper ouper puper quper ruper super tuper uuper vuper wuper xuper yuper ZUPER TIRED!!!! Till I dun attend classes. I skip classes. The thought of waking up every morning to go to school, is enough to drain my freaking energy; let alone traveling miles away. By the time I land school, lesson has already ended. So where does motivation play a part? HAIZ... And its not as though the modules are interesting or wadsoever. Irrelevant stuff that I'm learning...those that I won't even be applying in real life. If passion is absent, you wouldn't be keen in wadeva you're doing. This results in poor standards, quality etc.. In a nutshell, you end up suffering and doing things for the SAKE of doing, not for yourself, but for the sake of getting ahead of the next level.


If only attendance is not at all important, I still can make up for the loss...by of course studying at home, because studying in school...Nah, I'd rather do that here. Projects and all...I'm absolutely fine with them..since I've went through hell at one point of time, of complete insanity when all I did was wake up, go to school, do projects, reports till late at night, head back home at 10-11pm, bathe, continue with reports, AND the following day, the damn routine plays again. Having a fucking biased teacher as well, who treated only my group like POISON (for I duno what reason)...who kept targeting and pin pointing at us...who kept rejecting our ideas without even bothering to guide us by telling us wads right or wrong...who ONLY showed liking and enthusiasm in those SMART ALEXES... can you just imagine how bloody sick and tired I was? If I could maneuver through that SHIT, I can survive anywhere else...seriously.


K..now I dun give a damn about whether people judge me based on my level of intellect, my main aim is to get that fucking dip as fast as I can. Whether or not I'm intellectually disabled or I have a fantabulous brain, doesn't concern anyone because you weren't in my shoes. So, your judgement does not bother me.


Yub...coming back to where I was... I get tired easily. So what should I do?

1. Sleep early. ---> I have a problem doing this. I am an owl...k not really one, but I set my own rhythm. And that's the fucking problem! I do things according to whenever I choose to, and I get irritated if people try to bend my routine...whereby I shouldn't be feeling this way...because the world doesn't revolve around me. My body clock is so screwed up! My lunch= Dinner; Dinner=Supper. Well..for morning breakfast...HAHA..it isn't even in my dictionary. Do I even have time to chomp on the bread when I'm busy getting my ass off to school?

2. Time management. ---> In order to sleep early, or within my expected time, I have to manage things well. And what does that mean, I have to do things quick and efficiently. I shouldn't be taking my very own sweet time. I should be active in the day time and less active at night. This is the right way. Actually, I work very well in a stressful environment, where I have to meet many deadlines in a row. Whenever I feel stressed, I feel the need to complete things ASAP, and will strive to do it, even if it means not talking to anyone. But, that is not healthy. I need to have a balance in all.

Haha..I've figured out that supplements have less effectiveness in me. I took energy booster drinks to feel refreshed, but end up tired also. Not only that, I really appreciate my mum who takes the extra effort to get my all sorts of supplements. But mum, nothing helps.. I did yoga..and eventually ceased doing so. I guess I should re-implement things I used to do in life, like exercise. My body feels lighter when I exercise. YES! I ought to do it soon.


Hope I can pull my socks and BUCK UP! Woman, you have to!!!! Dun give up...even if you have the URGE to run to somewhere FARRRRRRRRRRRRRR AWAYYYYY!!!! :)