Indian Parentzzz!

Whether or not others criticize me, I think the ones who curse me the most are my very own parents! Yes, I'm so bloody proud to announce this! As usual....I got scolded (Or maybe...cursed) for nothing at all. Very used to it, especially if you're an Indian. Though I'm so numb (because you've said the same things over infinite number of times), those words that were spilled out knowingly/unknowingly is making my blood boil! To you, I am dumb, useless, good for nothing, a waste in life...you even questioned my birth & presence. Yea....wad other positive things can u come up with anyway? In fact, you even blurted out the same words when I graduated from primary & secondary school, despite me being a bright student.


Even when I was first in the entire level for two consecutive years, all you could come up with was 'Why din you do even better in this subject?' ..... 'How come your friend did so well & you fared like this?' Blablabla...without fail, there's always COMPARISON involved! Whereas, not even once have you appreciated my efforts & believed in me that I am much more capable of better things ahead. All you do is to goddamn condemn & criticize me till your fullest potential. You dun see me trying whenever I study long hours...but you scold me whenever I take short breaks in between, blaming me that I am lazy! LAZY...oh wells of course I'm lazy, cos the whole time when you're sound asleep, I burnt midnight all the way studying. How can you see that with those closed eyes, temme? Funny people... And its not as though my results were in favor of me either. For some reason...no matter how much of effort I keep putting in, its still not enough!!! That just irritates the SHIT out of me cos I know I AM NOT THAT DUMB after all...even if you assume otherwise. Study hard also like shit; study smart even more shit. So wad...I'm supposed to incorporate study hard into study smart which eventually = I AM GENIUS?! I won't be appalled if you ever came up with that equation one fine day!


Why can't you see that I'm NOT a science student? Step-by-step factual analysis is NOT my style. The collaboration of random things into something unique...that sounds more like me! When will you realize that? Don't keep shoving expectations on me... I create my own expectations. This is my life! I have certain principles & expectations of myself...where no one else knows. In fact, they're even higher than what you expect. No matter how many times you've played the music that I'll never prosper in life, I'm least affected by your reckless words. Because I am what I am & I will be where I ought to be. So save your words please.


Just cos I'm keeping silent all the way, it doesn't point to the fact that I am deaf & ignorant to your waging tongues. I'll let you talk as much as you want. However, on my day of victory, I'll still remain silent..only thing: my gaze on you would have spoken thousands of words, that you yourself would be dumbfounded for words.



Till then..... I'll keep striving for...? Only my heart noes...:)